Chapter 65: Don’t think too highly of yourself

Chapter 65 - Don't think too highly of yourself The maids came back in shortly with a tray of food that had been waiting for me, but since I was asleep, they did not disturb my slumber and let me sleep past lunch. I knew that Hyun-woo felt annoyed that he had done a sloppy job by giving me the drip without knowing if I had eaten first but he didn't say anything about it and kept silent till I was done with the meal. The drip was almost done by then so I decided to go back to reading my book. Since he wasn't going to say anything to me, I didn't need to bother with him either. Time would tell if he was going to keep being difficult or if he was going to break last his nonchalance and start 'caring'. But even with time, change wasn't a guarantee. "Before this incident," I spoke up, my eyes still glued to my book. "Did I do anything to upset you?" I asked and finally glanced up to meet his gaze but he was still being difficult. He looked away with his arms folded and in spite. "You seem to hate me. I tried not to think about it and think positively, but with each encounter, I can see clearly that my existence sparks up a certain irritation in you. It's as if my existence disturbs you." "Hmph," he still didn't say anything. His silence could neither confirm nor deny my allegations, so he stayed that way. Was he going to be difficult till the end? "Ah, I see." I exclaimed and returned my gaze to my book. "Doctor Hyun-woo is a very highly sought out doctor but he's exclusive to the four masters. He gets paid hourly so he doesn't lack anything. And yet... That highly paid and sought Doctor is reduced to being the doctor of a mere slave," I said, rolling my eyes towards him and noticing him flinch. "If I think about it like this, I can come to terms with why you hate me even when I never did anything wrong to you. And whether it's true or not," I rolled my eyes back to my book and muttered softly. "I will never know." "Stop right there," he finally spoke up. "I don't know what you're feeling like." He said and rescued his unimpressed gaze. "Do you think you're the only one I treat that way? I hate you? Don't think too highly of yourself. You're no different from everyone else I ignore on a daily basis. It's just not my job to converse with you or be friendly with you. No one is paying me to do any of that so why should I?" "I see," I exclaimed, once again. "Then, I guess I just can't talk to you however I want because I can't afford to pay you for your time. If that's it, then I understand. Sorry I came to such a conclusion earlier, and sorry I was trying to start random conversations with you. I should know my place and not wish for things I can't afford." I licked my finger and then flipped the page of my book. From that moment, I decided I would limit my interaction with Doctor Cha Hyun-woo. I remember the way he started feeling compassion for Jo-Pil and why he started having feelings for him. It was because the silent Jo-Pil never sought a conversation with him and always had a battered body each day he came to check on him. If that's the only way to get Cha Hyun-woo's recognition then it's best to just give up now. I don't plan to have a battered body on a daily basis or live like a withered flower just to get his compassion. So long as my masters were compassionate towards me, that was all I needed. The doctor could do his job and that was all. I didn't care for whatever effect my response to Cha Hyun-woo would make him feel but I was done trying. I could at least keep my mouth shut when he was around and not afford to waste his time since he was so 'expensive'. Even if I had the money to buy his time, I wouldn't do it unless my life depended on it. After the drip bag was empty, Hyun-woo took out the needle and started packing up his stuff. With the way things had become awkward and somewhat heavy between us, I hoped there wouldn't be any instance that would cause him to come visit. I was healthy and eating fine, so there was definitely no need for the doctor to come over. So, I wished to not see him for at least a month. Cha Hyun-woo packed his bag and began to head to the door, but he paused, feeling he had forgotten something, but there was nothing. He simply glanced back at me, who was reading my book, and frowned before walking out. After he closed the door, I shut my book and sighed. I was already done reading a few minutes ago, but I didn't want to have nothing to do when he was leaving, so I pretended to still be reading in order to avoid raising my head till he was gone. And after he was gone, I could finally breathe in peace. Some characters are quite hard to bend. Maybe because he wasn't one of the male leads but my protagonist magnet couldn't draw him towards me no matter how many times he had come to check on me. I even tried to be friendly a few times, but he only felt suspicious about my methods of handling my masters. What? Did he want me to sit silently like a doll on display, held when it was time to play, and tossed aside when the masters were satisfied? If I had lived like that, would he have been less skeptical about me? "Nonsense," I folded my legs and rested my head on my knees. "He's too much." Did his words get to me? I don't know but I felt weirdly sad. Maybe it was just because of the way the book I was reading ended. It was a sad ending. Yes, that must be it. Well, I had nothing else to do. Should I go get another book? I wondered, but my mind was a bit fuzzy, and I doubted I would be able to read clearly with a fuzzy mind. So, should I just take a short nap? The Sun was already setting and Min-Cheol might return soon. It would also be time for dinner soon but... My eyelids felt heavy and I ended up falling asleep again.