Chapter 175: It’s because I like Hyung’s touch

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Chapter 175: It’s because I like Hyung’s touch "I insist." I held a serious gaze and hoped he would see how serious I was. I know I said I would push a little harder and give up so we don’t have to end up in the most awkward situation but my gut feeling was telling me that if I left Ki-hoon like this, if I left him to take care of his erection by himself and walk away, the mood between us would take a turn. I’m not sure if it’s for the worse or for better but it definitely couldn’t be for better after I had been rejected multiple times while trying to offer my help. ’The dynamic will change.’ I thought. ’He’ll think he owes me just because he rejected me and would never be able to convince himself that it was alright to touch or kiss me from now on. He’ll be caged in his own insecurity and uncertainty after rejecting me." While it was good that he had a good heart and was rejecting me for my own good, because he felt I wasn’t ready yet, it’s still a fact that he’s pushing away his partner’s continuous advance, if at all he sees me as his partner. What right would he have to lay his hand on the partner he rejected? You understand what I mean, right? So, I decided to prevent something like that from happening. And to do that, I had to go through with this. ’Ugh, I didn’t know I would push this far.’ But the feeling hit me halfway so what could I do? I could ruin Ki-hoon’s self-esteem and force him to close off any sexual relations with me. I mean, I don’t plan to get ’that’ active yet but you know what I mean. A guy’s gotta get a little action once in a while. "Jo-Pil, is there a reason you’re insisting on doing this?" He asked and I literally signed inwardly. I just explained to the readers why I was doing this, just how do you expect me to repeat that explanation? Although, I can’t tell you everything anyway so I’ll put it like this. "It’s because I like Hyung’s touch." How cliche. "And I feel that if we stop here, Hyung will never be himself to touch me again, and you might end up having to use your authority as my master because you can’t bring yourself to be familiar with me after rejecting me." Yeah, that should work. "I would never." "And if it did happen?" I quickly responded, knowing he would say something like that. "If somehow it ends up that way, what will you do? Will you be able to correct your past mistake?" No one can change a past mistake without going to the past itself and it’s impossible to do so all Willynilly. My case is different. I still don’t know why I was sent to another world and then returned here, but to the past before all that horrible stuff happened, but I was going to make good use of it and avoid making mistakes. I lowered my head, playing with my fingers nervously as I added, "You never know, Hyung. So, I decided that it’s better to be safe than sorry." I said and smiled. Ki-hoon stared at me and gulped. He was conflicted, I could tell. He must’ve been confident in himself but he couldn’t disregard my worries and decided to follow my words. He wanted me to have peace of mind, after all. How sweet. So, with this excuse, he decided to go through with it. "Alright." He said. "But make sure to let me know if you feel I’m taking things too far." We won’t have sex so there’s no reason to worry that we would take things too far. But seeing he was being extra careful because he couldn’t trust himself, I wondered if there was a part of him I was yet to discover. ’Well, whatever. I’ll discover as things unfold.’ I wasn’t exactly the sexual type, the type that thought about having a one-night stand or getting into a relationship to have a stable sex life, so I never thought that I would be so thrilled by sexual contact. I mean, the trauma also had a part in it but I was going to change that. ’I’m not saying I’m going to be a sex fiend, but in due time, I’ll have to have sex with my masters. They won’t rush me but something keeps nagging me that I will end up needing the sex.’ Seriously, there seems to be something very important that I’m missing. At that time, I had no idea that it was a piece of information that would’ve put my non-sex life in jeopardy if I hadn’t decided to start preparing at this point. But until then, I would just keep taking small steps. (um, I don’t think Ki-hoon jerking off in front of you, who’s blindfolded, while using you as arousing material, is anything called a small step. Ahem) "Then, Jo-Pil, pardon me." He said and then kissed me. The kiss was sudden but I did not pull back. Since I was sitting on the bed and he stood before me, his large body hovering over me, I felt even more overwhelmed and clue he’d his shirt. Our lips twirled vigorously, our salivas mixing together like raw eggs getting whisked together in a bowl. I read in books how good it felt when the male lead kissed the female lead, how their sensual contact sent electric currents flowing through their body and causing them to lose their minds. I read all of that and felt it might’ve been exaggerated to a great extent because I could never imagine why it would feel so good to suck on another’s tongue and mix each other’s saliva. If anything, it was gross at some point but when I did it with Seo-Jun the first time, though I hated that he tricked me, I could not deny that it made me feel something different. And then with Min-Cheol who was a complete novice, but it still felt light. I only got to experience how intense and electrifying a kiss could be when they both ’ganged’ up in me to steal my breath away, enticing me with their bodies, Ki-hoon especially, and drowning me in their Pheromones. It was at that point that I realized that, ’Ah, maybe I have a thing for kissing.’ It was a dangerous practice that I should probably try to control but it’s not like I’m kissing someone every other day. It was in moderation so it was okay. I think. And now... I was feeling it even more, with my eyes closed and my surrounding feelings foreign to me. The only things that felt familiar to me were the scent of Ki-hoon’s Pheromones, his hot lips smacking on mine, his right breath battling with mind and his hot fingertips roaming over my neck. Everything else felt foreign but in that foreign darkness, I found comfort because of how gentle and tender he treated me. He did not cause me any single discomfort and I felt he prioritized my own pleasure to his. So, even though his other hand was occupied, he made up for it with his lips and his other hand. How was he so good at this? I wonder.

Chapter 175: It’s because I like Hyung’s touch

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