Chapter 46: Please, don’t go back to how you were

Chapter 46 - Please, don't go back to how you were I don't know if it was a good thing to tell Jin-Yeok that I killed a man to start with. But since he was someone who had killed more than a dozen people before reaching adulthood, I thought he would come to understand my fright. His first kill wasn't easy, either. In the first place, he would wonder how I, a weak frail Omega, was able to kill a man. He would wonder what led to such a situation that I got so desperate and took another life, to the point that I would do it again if I were to ever encounter that situation again. I saw the shock in his eyes and closed mine. He didn't expect it, good. That means he, indeed, hadn't read my file to the end. "I was on the run and in heat and I got tricked. The image of a man hovering over me haunts me till this day, the pain of getting hit is so clear that I can still somehow feel the hotness on my cheek and my ears ringing as if I never got over it." I shivered, clutching my arms as I recalled the incident. "I couldn't stay still and I hit him with the vase. I didn't stop there even if I finally got him off me. I was vengeful, angry, and scared, so I kept hitting him till I was sure he wouldn't move anymore. So, that's how I ended up killing him." I looked up at him. "Master, I dirtied my hands but I was able to keep my body safe. But even then, the experience still haunts me and that is why I get scared each time I think about fulfilling my duties." I said. "Even though I put my mind to it, my body acts out on its own. I told you I was telling you all this so you would sympathize with me and it was the truth. So, can you please give me time to adjust if I am to fulfill my duties with you? I will not run from it but please, do not force me into it." "Was that what you asked the other two?" He asked and I nodded. "That and I wished to not be hit since it hurts a lot." I said. Okay, so that was bold of me and I had managed to make all my demands. That show of me asking him to give me time to adjust was just to make him pity me. In the first place, he never had any interest in having sex with Jo-Pil and was just doing it to get an heir, so if I used this card, I was sure he wouldn't think more about it and give me time. Yes, time was what I needed. I just needed to be left alone for a while till I was ready to take on any of them. But I wasn't seeing myself ready even in the near future. A hidden problem would have to arise for me to even agree to spread my legs for them. "So, what you're asking of me is to give you time till you're ready to have sex?" He asked quite bluntly and I nodded. "Does it scare you that much?" He asked, but I bit my lips, looked away, and nodded. "Haa," he sighed and I clenched my fists. Please, don't go back to how you were. I inwardly prayed. "Well, if it's just that, then I don't have a problem with it." He said and I opened my eyes wide. He bought it. "And I won't hit you either. Look at you, Hwang Jo-Pil, you're so skinny. Just where would I hit? Don't worry, even if you do manage to get on my nerves, I won't hit you." That was like music to my ears. "That's not enough," I suddenly said. "What's not enough?" "You have to promise me, Master." I boldly said. "Just like the other masters did." "Oh?" He grinned. "Now, I see how you were able to get them on your side in just four days. You're tenacious," he said. "Allow me to take that as a compliment," I said, and he laughed; his laughter sounded pure and free. "Alright, I promise you not to hit you, force you, or bring you harm." He said. "Will that do?" He asked, and I nodded, biting my lip. "Besides, I like our interactions. You're honest, and your words sometimes crack me up, so I doubt you'll be able to say something that will make me want to hit you." "Ah, thank goodness," I said, sighing in relief but then he grabbed my hand and wrapped his arms around my waist, pulling me into his body. "Master?" "You seem so fun to tease, Hwang Jo-Pil," he said. "And your personality changes so often depending on your mood, just like a kitten." "Do you like cats, Master?" I asked. "Not really. But I think I'll come to like them going forward." He said. "Why?" I asked, but he smiled deceitfully. "Just because." Hmm, he was planning something again. Well, as long as I have gotten him on my side, for now, I have nothing to worry about. He could still bring up punishment from time to time but I was sure he wouldn't go too far and try to harm me. He had given me his word, after all. So, I needed to be a little bit careful around him but at the same words, say words that he would find amusing. Well, that's three down, one to go. And that last one... Aigo, he's going to be a real pain in the ass. "So, can I ask my question now?" He asked but I shook my head. "You already asked it, master." I said, confusing him. "Huh? When was that? I don't recall." "You did. In fact, you asked two questions but I'll let it slide since it's the first time you're doing it." I said but he was still confused. "Ah, in case you don't remember it, let me refresh your memory." "No need." He said. "You're so sly, you know that?" "Whatever do you mean?" I asked, acting oblivious and blinking my eyes but he ended up laughing. "I think I'm going to enjoy our continuous interactions," he said and I nodded. "I think so too. But master, I was serious." "Abot what?" "About being a good listener." I said and we both fell into a brief silence before Min-Cheol barged into the room, flinging the door wide open and throwing a tantrum. "What is taking you so long? The food is getting cold and..." Min-Cheol paused, seeing my hand in Jin-Yeok's and his arm around my waist, so he looked away. "Ugh, what's going on? Are you planning to get to it and leave?" He asked. Hmm, this was rather odd. Why did he look away? It was as if he was giving us some privacy. I did not expect that from him at all. So, he knew how to think rather than throw a tantrum every time, huh?