Chapter 203: The Urge I Couldn’t Fight

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Get a glimpse of "[BL] CRAVING HIM: Addicted to His Voice" Chapter 203: Chapter 203: Chapter 203: The Urge I Couldn’t Fight ~Evric’s POV~ I couldn’t speak. All I could... Continue the adventure now!

Chapter 203: Chapter 203: The Urge I Couldn’t Fight ~Evric’s POV~ I couldn’t speak. All I could do was cry, the overwhelming wave of relief that I hadn’t been violated, mixed with the terror of how close I’d come, shook my entire body. Karl reached for the phone, clearly intending to call—Zayn. I managed to grab his arm. "Don’t," I gasped, wiping desperately at my eyes. "Don’t call. Just... help me get into the restroom. I need to be submerged,to try and suppress the urge in my body. I thought" "Okay." Karl nodded, instantly shifting into crisis mode. He helped me up, supporting my shaky weight, and guided me into the private attached restroom. Once he was sure I was stable, he quietly went back outside, closing the door behind him. I stripped myself naked and stumbled into the shower. I cranked the cold water on full blast and stood there, letting the icy spray shock my heated skin. All I did was try to hold myself together. The fear was crippling; the thought that if Nicki had succeeded, this night would have been the end of my relationship with Zayn was devastating. Thinking about that alone made me cry harder. But I was glad I was safe. I promised myself, Nicki, I won’t let you escape punishment this time. After my body calmed a little, though the physical urge still throbbed beneath the surface, I stepped out from the shower. The cool water only offered temporary relief. I knew that since it was a drug, the effect wouldn’t truly dissipate until I satisfied the induced need. When I got back outside, Karl was waiting anxiously. "What in God’s name really happened?" I explained everything, leaving no detail out. "The food sent here wasn’t from Zayn. It was Nicki. And there were drugs inside it." "What?!" Karl shouted, his jaw dropping. He cursed Nicki in a low, furious stream. "What are we going to do now, Evric?" "I need to get Zayn first," I said, my voice urgent. "He’s not picking up my call, and Nicki told me he went to Nantam’s house." Karl thought for a moment. "You should send a sincere apology message to Zayn and tell him to share his location. Don’t mention Nicki yet, just tell him you’re worried about him." I did exactly as Karl told me. Moments later, my phone pinged. Truly, Zayn sent me his location. I left the office with Karl. My body was still far from right; even after spending so long under the cold shower, I was still sweating. My driver was waiting downstairs, parked right at the curb by the main entrance. I slid into the backseat. I shared Zayn’s location with my driver and bid goodbye to Karl. "Go straight to that location," I ordered. My driver immediately pulled out, speeding into the night, the illuminated map on the dashboard showing our route to the coordinates Zayn had sent. After a tense few minutes, the car finally reached the location: a quiet, upscale residential street. I didn’t move. I simply stared at the house until the front door opened and Zayn stepped out. He paused, gave a curt goodbye to someone inside, and then walked toward the waiting car. He opened the back door, slid in beside me, and slammed the door shut with an unnecessary force that spoke volumes of his lingering anger. "Hey, babe," I offered, my greeting quiet and cautious. "Hey," he replied, he didn’t meet my eyes, instead focusing his gaze rigidly on the window. I wanted to reach out, to beg for forgiveness, to confess the terrifying ordeal that had just happened, but the cold distance radiating off him stopped me. My driver pulled back onto the road, heading toward home. The car was filled with a thick, suffocating silence. Zayn sat pressed against the door, putting as much space as possible between us. He was punishing me, and for once, I knew I completely deserved it. I closed my eyes, fighting the drug and the despair, knowing that the confrontation awaiting us at the house would be worse than any fight we’d ever had. The driver pulled up to the house entrance, and the car slowed to a stop. The journey had been interminable, the silence between us a living, suffocating thing. We walked inside, the grand hallway feeling colder and emptier than usual. Zayn didn’t offer a glance or a word; he walked straight to the bedroom, leaving me to trail behind. Once in the room, Zayn immediately changed into his sleepwear and climbed onto his side of the bed. He lay on his back, staring at the ceiling, effectively erecting a massive wall between us. I desperately needed to tell him about Nicki, about the drug, and about the terrifying close call, but the situation was already volatile. I couldn’t risk revealing the attack while he was actively despising me; he might mistake my need for pity, or worse, see it as another manipulative attempt to control him. I needed things to be sorted out between us first. I sat on the edge of the bed and spoke, my voice low and earnest. "Babe, I am so sorry. I know I was controlling and awful. I don’t know what came over me in that restroom. It was a completely unacceptable way to treat you, and I deeply regret it." Zayn gave no reply. He didn’t move. He simply stared at the ceiling, ignoring my apology entirely. I lay down beside him, the physical urge caused by the drug intensifying the moment I was horizontal. A terrible thought struck me: Zayn would probably refuse me sex tonight, especially since we’d already had a marathon session this morning. But I couldn’t control the urgent, chemical need clawing at my sanity. I knew I couldn’t fight the drug for much longer. I had to make a move, to find a way to connect with him, and then maybe I could confess. I shifted carefully, moving closer to him. I intended to whisper another apology, to soften him up with affection, but the drug had different plans. As I drew near, my erection, rock-hard and throbbing, brushed against his thigh. Zayn instantly exploded, flying upright on the bed.

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[BL] CRAVING HIM: Addicted to His Voice
[BL] CRAVING HIM: Addicted to His Voice Author:GoldWinwar
Chapter 1: Let My Voice Ruin You Sep 9th, 2025
Chapter 2: The Voice That Undressed Me Sep 9th, 2025
Chapter 3: Cornered By Temptation Sep 9th, 2025
Chapter 4: The Price of One Mistake Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 5: The Sound Of Surrender Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 6: The Silence After the Storm Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 7: The Pleasure Trap Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 8: When Distractions Bloom Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 9: Where My Heart Betrays Me Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 10: Hate Me, But Don’t Leave Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 11: The Soft After the Storm Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 12: Before the Fall Evric’s Flashback Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 13: Crashed and Broken Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 14: Even at the Edge of Death Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 15: When the Truth Hurts More Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 16: Chained by Memories Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 17: The Night Fate Led Me to Zayn Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 18: The First Time It Wasn’t Nicki Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 19: Aftertaste of Fire Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 20: Fate Won’t Let Us Go Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 21: From Pain to Passion Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 22: The Beginning of Us Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 23: Heat Between the Lines Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 24: Unspoken Jealousy Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 25: The Past Returns Before I Could Move On Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 26: At the Edge of Silence, I Chose You Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 27: To Feel Him, To Keep Him Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 28: Just When I Thought I Moved On Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 29: Clingy Mornings and Careful Lies Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 30: Old Names, New Emotions Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 31: Whispers in His Arms Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 32: A Kiss to Recharge Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 33: The Price of Loving You Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 34: Too Late for Us Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 35: Horny Texts and Unfinished Business Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 36: My Ex Still Knows My Body Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 37: I Couldn’t Touch Nicki, But Zayn Touched Her Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 38: The Ache I Couldn’t Hide with Zayn Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 39: The Way You Moan My Name, Evric Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 40: Everything Feels Good With You Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 41: Secrets Over Breakfast Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 42: Nicki’s Past Unwrapped Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 43: The Kiss Interrupted Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 44: An Invitation for the Weekend Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 45: The Entrance No One Expected Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 46: Words That Cut Deeper Than Silence Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 47: Owned in Anger, Held in Love Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 48:Wild in the Middle of Nowhere Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 49: Pounded Under Moonlight Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 50: The Hardest You’ve Ever Had Me Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 51: Burns, Breakfast, and Belonging Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 52: All of You, My Way Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 53: The Way You Call Me Sep 10th, 2025
Chapter 54: Tensions and Threats Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 55: Promises and Tension Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 56: The Hunger Between Us Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 57: Tempers and Temptation Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 58: Between Love and Satisfaction Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 59: Enjoy, Every Inch of You Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 60: When Morning Breaks Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 61: Unwanted Seduction Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 62: Caught in the Moment Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 63: The Moment Everything Changed Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 64: A Distance Between Us Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 65: A Promise to Stay Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 66: Falling Against All Odds Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 67: Claim What’s Yours Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 68: Jealousy in His Eyes Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 69: The Fight That Healed Us Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 70: The Voice That Owned Me Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 71: Between Fear and Love Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 72: Crossed Lines and Apologies Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 73: Words He Never Said Before Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 74: When Rogan Spoke His Name Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 75: Never Let Go, Zayn Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 76: Grinding Out the Truth Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 77: The One Who Won’t Be Let Go Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 78: A Worry That Won’t Rest Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 79: When Old Flames Resurface Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 80: Seeing Through the Truth Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 81: Between Regret and Relief Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 82: Suck Daddy First Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 83: When Desire Turns Painful and Passion Explodes Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 84: Fragile Forgiveness and the Weight of Desire Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 85: The Weight of Trust Sep 12th, 2025
Chapter 86: Safe in My Arms Oct 16th, 2025
Chapter 87: One Bite, One Kiss: Feeding Desire Oct 16th, 2025
Chapter 88: Secret Choices and Quiet Laughter Oct 16th, 2025
Chapter 89: The Fear of Disappointment Oct 16th, 2025
Chapter 90: A Promise in Every Touch Oct 16th, 2025
Chapter 91: Trust and Intimacy Oct 17th, 2025
Chapter 92: You Are My Everything Oct 17th, 2025
Chapter 93: A Cautious Warning Oct 19th, 2025
Chapter 94: Meeting Zayn’s Mom Oct 19th, 2025
Chapter 95: A Friend or Something More Oct 20th, 2025
Chapter 96: What We Mean to Each Other Oct 21st, 2025
Chapter 97: Who is Zayn to you Oct 22nd, 2025
Chapter 98: Zayn’s Mother’s Approval Oct 22nd, 2025
Chapter 99: Going Back Together Oct 24th, 2025
Chapter 100: A Day in My World Oct 24th, 2025
Chapter 101: Will You Be My Boyfriend Oct 25th, 2025
Chapter 102: Always Yes to You Oct 26th, 2025
Chapter 103: Take the Pain, Take the Pleasure Oct 27th, 2025
Chapter 104: Thrust, Until the Last Moan Oct 27th, 2025
Chapter 105: Begging for More Oct 29th, 2025
Chapter 106: Until He Was Satisfied Oct 29th, 2025
Chapter 107: A Voice That Calms Me Oct 30th, 2025
Chapter 108: Tied by Love, Teased by Desire Oct 31st, 2025
Chapter 109: Caught in His Eyes Nov 1st, 2025
Chapter 110: 72 Hours With Zayn Nov 1st, 2025
Chapter 111: Marked and Claimed Nov 3rd, 2025
Chapter 112: Clinging to the Last Moments Nov 3rd, 2025
Chapter 113: The First Temptation in Dubai Nov 5th, 2025
Chapter 114: Closer Than Distance Nov 5th, 2025
Chapter 115: Echoes of Pain and Laughter Nov 7th, 2025
Chapter 116: Eyes of the Media Nov 7th, 2025
Chapter 117: Secrets and Staying Close Nov 9th, 2025
Chapter 118: 7 days with you, Zayn Nov 9th, 2025
Chapter 119: The Weight of Secrets Nov 11th, 2025
Chapter 120: Unfinished Promises Nov 11th, 2025
Chapter 121: Evric’s Rule. Boundaries of Love Nov 13th, 2025
Chapter 122: Every Drop Belongs to Him Nov 13th, 2025
Chapter 123: Annoying Sweetness Nov 15th, 2025
Chapter 124: Hot and Hard Online Nov 15th, 2025
Chapter 125: The Cheesiest Apology Nov 17th, 2025
Chapter 126: Learning to Calm My Husband Nov 17th, 2025
Chapter 127: Love and the Things We Don’t Say Nov 19th, 2025
Chapter 128: Miles Can’t Keep Us Apart Nov 19th, 2025
Chapter 129: Temptation I Refuse Nov 21st, 2025
Chapter 130: Teasing the Heart Nov 21st, 2025
Chapter 131: Unwanted Guest Nov 23rd, 2025
Chapter 132: The Ride That Almost Wasn’t Nov 23rd, 2025
Chapter 133: The Threat Behind the Smile Nov 25th, 2025
Chapter 134: Only for My Man Nov 25th, 2025
Chapter 135: Secrets Behind the Screen Nov 27th, 2025
Chapter 136: When Silence Cuts Deeper Nov 27th, 2025
Chapter 137: The Distance Hurts More Nov 29th, 2025
Chapter 138: Between Laughter and Silence Nov 29th, 2025
Chapter 139: The Surprise That Stole My Breath Dec 1st, 2025
Chapter 140: Surprises and Unspoken Fears Dec 1st, 2025
Chapter 141: The Surprise by the Shore Dec 3rd, 2025
Chapter 142: HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVE Dec 3rd, 2025
Chapter 143: The Night of Truth and Surprises Dec 5th, 2025
Chapter 144: A War Waiting to Begin Dec 5th, 2025
Chapter 145: Baby, Cheers to Forever Dec 7th, 2025
Chapter 146: Claiming What’s Mine Dec 7th, 2025
Chapter 147: Evric’s Power Over My Body & Heart Dec 9th, 2025
Chapter 148: Where Desire Finds Voice Dec 9th, 2025
Chapter 149: Shaking Under My Touch Dec 11th, 2025
Chapter 150: In the Middle of Everything Dec 11th, 2025
Chapter 151: Impossible, But Still Yours Dec 12th, 2025
Chapter 152: The Weight of True Friendship Dec 13th, 2025
Chapter 153: When Love Sets Sail Dec 14th, 2025
Chapter 154: A Bitter Taste Jealousy Dec 14th, 2025
Chapter 155: Don’t You Dare Scare Me Again Dec 16th, 2025
Chapter 156: Through Every Fear, With You Dec 16th, 2025
Chapter 157: Love Between Breaths Dec 18th, 2025
Chapter 158: Hold Me Like Before Dec 18th, 2025
Chapter 159: Equal Love Between Us Dec 20th, 2025
Chapter 160: A Choice I Refuse to Make Dec 20th, 2025
Chapter 161: The Agreement Between Us Dec 21st, 2025
Chapter 162: Love Under Their Eyes Dec 22nd, 2025
Chapter 163: Serve Me My Punishment Dec 23rd, 2025
Chapter 164: Bound by Truth, Broken by Desire Dec 23rd, 2025
Chapter 165: One Month Without You Dec 25th, 2025
Chapter 166: The Weight of Choices Dec 25th, 2025
Chapter 167: One Month Under the Same Roof Dec 26th, 2025
Chapter 168: Home Is Where You Are Dec 27th, 2025
Chapter 169: My Morning Begins with You Dec 28th, 2025
Chapter 170: Love in the Details Dec 28th, 2025
Chapter 171: Silent Nights, Hidden Tears Dec 30th, 2025
Chapter 172: Demanding Answers Dec 30th, 2025
Chapter 173: Trust the Process Dec 31st, 2025
Chapter 174: Do You Regret It Jan 1st, 2026
Chapter 175: What I Never Saw Coming Jan 2nd, 2026
Chapter 176: Please, Don’t Shut Me Out Jan 2nd, 2026
Chapter 177: Loyalty Test On You Jan 4th, 2026
Chapter 178: A Little Tease, A Lot of Love Jan 4th, 2026
Chapter 179: A Father’s Approval Jan 5th, 2026
Chapter 180: A Father’s Blessing and an Unexpected Night Jan 6th, 2026
Chapter 181: Between Control and Surrender Jan 7th, 2026
Chapter 182: The Third Round Jan 8th, 2026
Chapter 183: Daddy’s Responsibility Jan 8th, 2026
Chapter 184: I’m Not a Horse Like You, Nicki Jan 10th, 2026
Chapter 185: The Wound I Didn’t See Coming Jan 10th, 2026
Chapter 186: In the Fire of Love and Lies Jan 11th, 2026
Chapter 187: You Were My First Real Love Jan 12th, 2026
Chapter 188: Stripped by His Hands Jan 13th, 2026
Chapter 189: Shameless for You Jan 14th, 2026
Chapter 190: After Everything, Still Him Jan 14th, 2026
Chapter 191: The Claiming, Command, Control Jan 16th, 2026
Chapter 192: Claming Her Body Jan 16th, 2026
Chapter 193: The Fierce Pretense Jan 17th, 2026
Chapter 194: Unsaid Things Between Lovers Jan 18th, 2026
Chapter 195: The Calm Before the Storm Jan 19th, 2026
Chapter 196: No Way I Will Ever Do That Jan 20th, 2026
Chapter 197: The House Husband’s Rule Jan 20th, 2026
Chapter 198: Who Are You to Stop Me Jan 22nd, 2026
Chapter 199: Zayn Ride on Daddy Jan 22nd, 2026
Chapter 200: The Golfing With Father Jan 23rd, 2026
Chapter 201: The Unexpected Delivery Jan 24th, 2026
Chapter 202: Nicki’s Final Gambit Jan 25th, 2026
Chapter 203: The Urge I Couldn’t Fight Jan 26th, 2026
Chapter 204: The Price of Misunderstanding Jan 26th, 2026
Chapter 205: Where Pain Meets Clarity Jan 28th, 2026
Chapter 206: Let Me Be Your Doctor Jan 28th, 2026
Chapter 207: The Sound of Forgiveness Jan 29th, 2026
Chapter 208: The Masseur and the Storm Inside Jan 30th, 2026
Chapter 209: Rebuilding in Love’s Quiet Glow Jan 31st, 2026
Chapter 210: The Truth Behind the Bitterness Feb 1st, 2026
Chapter 211: The Calm After Confrontation Feb 1st, 2026
Chapter 212: Between Passion and Public Eyes Feb 3rd, 2026
Chapter 213: In His Arms, I Found My Courage Feb 3rd, 2026
Chapter 214: His Older Brother, My Husband Feb 5th, 2026
Chapter 215: Irrelevant to Today’s Achievements Feb 5th, 2026
Chapter 216: Between Love and Reputation Feb 7th, 2026
Chapter 217: Love in a Locked Room Feb 7th, 2026
Chapter 218: The Fear Beneath the Headlines Feb 9th, 2026
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