Chapter 195: Holding on to Hope ( 195 )

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Chapter 195: Holding on to Hope ( 195 ) As Kyouko was finishing her story, one of the boys raised his hand without waiting to be called. "How long you been married to Haruki onii-san?" Kyouko blinked. "Ah... umm..." she hesitated, clearly caught off guard, her hands pausing mid-gesture. But before she could speak, Haruki stepped into the room, smiling as he approached. "One year," he said smoothly. "More than one year now." The children turned to him with wide eyes. "Ehh!? Really!?" "Then—then—" another girl piped up with a grin, "when are you gonna have a baby, Haruki onii-san? With onee-san?" The question hung in the air like a firecracker. Kyouko’s eyes widened, her lips parting, but no words came out. A soft blush crept over her cheeks, and she quickly looked down, hiding a small, breathy laugh behind her hand. Haruki scratched his cheek, clearly caught between amusement and embarrassment. "Well... that’s a tough question." He looked at Kyouko, "We’ll see," he added with a smile. "Maybe someday soon." The kids all let out a collective "Oooooh~" followed by cheerful giggles and whispers. One boy clapped excitedly. "I hope it’s a girl! She’ll be so pretty like Onee-san!" Another added, "No way! A boy, so he can play soccer with us!" Kyouko laughed, eyes glowing with warmth. Just as the laughter settled and one of the children climbed onto her lap, Kyouko’s phone buzzed softly in her pocket. She glanced at the screen. Satoshi. Her smile faded. She looked over at Haruki, who had just taken a seat beside a group of boys showing off their drawings. He met her gaze with a calm smile. No words needed. She took a breath. Then answered. "Hello," she said softly, her voice calm—but inside. How dare this man ruin my peaceful day... "Kyouko? Where are you?" came Satoshi’s impatient voice. "I’m visiting someplace," she replied, her tone even. "Why?" "My business partner wants to invite us to a private dinner. Tonight. It’s important." She stared at the wall. Her eyes narrowed, but her lips curled into a false smile as she interrupted smoothly. "Hmm? I can’t... hear... you..." "Hello?" Satoshi repeated, irritation creeping into his voice. "Ah... the signal... bad... hello?" Her voice became lighter, as if flickering through static. "Sorry, can’t... hear you..." She ended the call. A beat of silence passed, and then she exhaled slowly, slipping her phone away. Her smile returned. "Who was that, Onee-san?" one of the kids asked curiously. She looked at them with a sparkle in her eyes. "Ah... just some pervert. Maybe a scammer, who knows~" The kids giggled. "Ehh~ scary!" Meanwhile, in Tokyo. "Satomi!" "Mm?" she looked up from her tablet. "Try calling your mom!" Satoshi’s voice was sharp. "I was trying, Papa..." Satomi replied coolly, tapping her phone again. "But it looks like her phone’s out of reach." Her tone was calm, but her brow twitched slightly. How annoying. Satoshi clicked his tongue in frustration. "Damn it... Fujiwara wants to have a private dinner tonight. He was expecting all of us—and especially your mother. You know how important this is for the company." "I know, Papa, I know." Satomi sighed. "I’ll try Haruki now. If she’s with anyone... it’s probably him." She opened her contact list, eyes narrowing. Then tapped Haruki’s name. Calling... Meanwhile, back at the orphanage... Haruki’s phone buzzed quietly on the nearby table. He glanced down, saw the name. Satomi. He raised it slightly, just enough for Kyouko to see the screen. She looked over from where she sat on the floor, her fingers gently tying a little girl’s long hair into a neat braid. She smiled faintly. Calm. Serene. She didn’t say anything—but her eyes said enough. Haruki pressed the answer button, lifting the phone to his ear. His tone was clipped. Professional. "Hello?" "Haruki? Is Mom with you?" Satomi’s voice came fast, demanding. Haruki let his gaze flick briefly toward Kyouko, then away. "No. I’m in a meeting right now. Important. Can’t be too long. Call you later." And just like that, he ended the call without waiting for her reply. No guilt. No hesitation. Kyouko sat quietly, her fingers moving with practiced ease as she tied the long, silky strands of the little girl’s hair into a neat, elegant braid. The child sat still in front of her, clearly enjoying the attention, her head tilted slightly forward like a sleepy kitten. Kyouko’s eyes softened as she worked, her expression peaceful—almost glowing. "You’re so cute..." she whispered. "I wonder if... I can have a child..." The moment the words left her lips, her eyes widened slightly. She quickly covered her mouth with one hand, her cheeks tinged pink. She glanced up, hoping no one heard. But Haruki had. He had been leaning quietly by the wall, watching her with warm eyes. He heard every word. Another little girl across the room looked up, eyes sparkling as she saw the finished braid. "Onee-san!! I want that too!! Please braid mine!!" Kyouko laughed softly, her hand resting gently on the first girl’s shoulder as she finished tying the ribbon at the end. "Okay~ come here. I’ll make you look just as cute." The second girl skipped over, sitting down eagerly in front of her. Kyouko tucked her hair behind her ears and began again—gracefully, carefully. From the side, Haruki watched, arms crossed casually, leaning against the wall. His gaze was warm, eyes never leaving Kyouko as she knelt among the children like she’d always belonged. He smiled. "I was hoping our first child would be a boy. Or twins, maybe." Kyouko’s hands paused for a moment. Her cheeks flushed again. She didn’t look back at him—but he could see the way her lips curled into a smile. "Mou~ don’t say that in front of them," she whispered under her breath, barely audible. The girl beneath her squirmed excitedly. "What did he say, Onee-san?" Kyouko gently tapped the girl’s head. "Nothing~ just your silly Haruki onii-san saying silly things. Sit still~" Haruki chuckled, his eyes lingering on her. One day... One day, I’ll have Kyouko. Not like this. Not in secret. Married to her. For real. No more pretending. No more stolen nights. No more sneaking around hallways like we’re something shameful. I want her to wake up beside me every morning. I want to say she’s mine—openly. Proudly. But the only thing standing in his way— Satoshi. That man who doesn’t deserve her. But what if he never lets her go? Haruki stood quietly in the orphanage hallway, hands in his pockets, watching the soft afternoon light spill across the wooden floor. From inside the room, he could still hear Kyouko’s gentle voice as she braided another child’s hair, her laugh soft and kind. His heart ached. I don’t want to wait anymore. I don’t want to live like this. I don’t want to hide the best thing in my life. I don’t want to keep saying "maybe someday." I want her. Officially. As my wife. As the mother of my child. As mine. Forever. And if Satoshi refused to give her up... Then maybe it was time for me to stopped waiting. ( End Of Chapter )

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Contents
A Love I Shouldn't Feel
A Love I Shouldn't Feel Author:Celine_Cheng
Chapter 1: Meeting the Family ( 1 ) Sep 15th, 2025
Chapter 2: The Distance Between Us ( 2 ) Sep 15th, 2025
Chapter 3: Fading Bonds ( 3 ) Sep 15th, 2025
Chapter 4: Lingering Glances ( 4 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 5: Silent Cravings ( 5 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 6: Forbidden Glance ( 6 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 7: The Comfort Zone ( 7 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 8: Fitness and Fluster ( 8 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 9: Complicated Desires ( 9 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 10: A Simple Trip ( 10 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 11: A Casual Outing ( 11 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 12: Caught in the Rain ( 12 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 13: Reflections of Insecurity ( 13 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 14: Lingering Feelings ( 14 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 15: Fevered Hearts ( 15 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 16: Holding On ( 16 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 17: Awakening Feelings ( 17 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 18: Moments of Comfort ( 18 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 19: Accidental Moments ( 19 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 20: Fitness and Tension ( 20 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 21: Innocent Embrace ( 21 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 22: Side by Side ( 22 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 23: Just You and Me ( 23 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 24: Late-Night Longings ( 24 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 25: Between Want and Need ( 25 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 26: Treading on Tenderness ( 26 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 27: The Subtle Shift ( 27 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 28: Fading Lines ( 28 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 29: Hidden Sparks ( 29 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 30: Descent into Need ( 30 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 31: Morning Light, Hidden Fires ( 31 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 32: The Forbidden Kiss ( 32 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 33: The Slow Collapse ( 33 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 34: The Subtle Push ( 34 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 35: Behind the Smile ( 35 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 36: More Than Pretend ( 36 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 37: Crossing the Line ( 37 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 38: Lost in the Moment ( 38 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 39: Morning After ( 39 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 40: The Forbidden Moment ( 40 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 41: Faded Innocence, Steady Desire ( 41 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 42: A Gentle Disguise ( 42 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 43: Silent Currents ( 43 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 44: Behind the Facade ( 44 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 45: Controlled Temptations ( 45 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 46: Silent Surrender ( 46 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 47: Lured by Desire ( 47 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 48: Fevered Moans ( 48 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 49: Ultimate Release ( 49 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 50: Behind a Smile ( 50 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 51: Colors of Deception ( 51 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 52: Another Day, Another Smile ( 52 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 53: Little Moments of Love ( 53 ) Sep 17th, 2025
Chapter 54: A Moment of Tension ( 54 ) Sep 19th, 2025
Chapter 55: Hidden Fires ( 55 ) Sep 19th, 2025
Chapter 56: Lust and Love ( 56 ) Sep 19th, 2025
Chapter 57: Consumed by Passion ( 57 ) Sep 19th, 2025
Chapter 60: Overwhelmed by You ( 60 ) Sep 19th, 2025
Chapter 61: Lost in Bliss ( 61 ) Sep 19th, 2025
Chapter 62: In Their Own World ( 62 ) Sep 19th, 2025
Chapter 63: Playful Temptation ( 63 ) Sep 19th, 2025
Chapter 64: Risk and Desire ( 64 ) Sep 19th, 2025
Chapter 65: Secrets Behind a Smile ( 65 ) Sep 19th, 2025
Chapter 66: Secrets in the Darkness ( 66 ) Sep 19th, 2025
Chapter 67: Trust in the Silence ( 67 ) Sep 19th, 2025
Chapter 68: Emptiness and Longing ( 68 ) Sep 19th, 2025
Chapter 69: With Every Breath ( 69 ) Sep 19th, 2025
Chapter 70: Hearts Apart ( 70 ) Sep 19th, 2025
Chapter 71: Quiet Desperation ( 71 ) Sep 19th, 2025
Chapter 72: A Farewell Without Words ( 72 ) Sep 19th, 2025
Chapter 73: Leaving with Resolve ( 73 ) Sep 19th, 2025
Chapter 74: Old Streets, New Stories ( 74 ) Sep 19th, 2025
Chapter 75: Home’s Hidden Tears ( 75 ) Sep 19th, 2025
Chapter 76: Family Bonds ( 76 ) Sep 21st, 2025
Chapter 77: The Distance Between Us ( 77 ) Sep 21st, 2025
Chapter 78: Stars and Longing ( 78 ) Sep 21st, 2025
Chapter 79: Behind the Smiles ( 79 ) Sep 21st, 2025
Chapter 80: Familiar Shadows ( 80 ) Sep 21st, 2025
Chapter 81: Lost in the Crowd ( 81 ) Sep 21st, 2025
Chapter 82: Voice of the Heart ( 82 ) Sep 21st, 2025
Chapter 83: Masks and Moments ( 83 ) Sep 21st, 2025
Chapter 84: Chatter and Cheers ( 84 ) Sep 21st, 2025
Chapter 85: Quiet Surprises ( 85 ) Sep 21st, 2025
Chapter 86: Sudden Surprises ( 86 ) Sep 21st, 2025
Chapter 87: Soft Whispers ( 87 ) Sep 21st, 2025
Chapter 88: First Light Feelings ( 88 ) Sep 21st, 2025
Chapter 89: Silent Affection ( 89 ) Sep 21st, 2025
Chapter 90: Casual Confessions ( 90 ) Sep 21st, 2025
Chapter 91: Fever of Desire ( 91 ) Sep 21st, 2025
Chapter 92: Obsession’s Edge ( 92 ) Sep 21st, 2025
Chapter 93: Claimed and Conquered ( 93 ) Sep 21st, 2025
Chapter 94: The Look That Reveals All ( 94 ) Sep 21st, 2025
Chapter 95: Hold Me Close ( 95 ) Sep 21st, 2025
Chapter 96: Yours and Mine ( 96 ) Sep 23rd, 2025
Chapter 97: The Taste of Us ( 97 ) Sep 23rd, 2025
Chapter 98: Closer Than Words ( 98 ) Sep 23rd, 2025
Chapter 99: Moments of Us ( 99 ) Sep 23rd, 2025
Chapter 100: Traditions and Toasts ( 100 ) Sep 23rd, 2025
Chapter 101: The Song She Keeps Inside ( 101 ) Sep 23rd, 2025
Chapter 102: Under Cover of Darkness ( 102 ) Sep 23rd, 2025
Chapter 103: The Beauty of Innocence ( 103 ) Sep 23rd, 2025
Chapter 104: Soft Whispers and Stealing Touches ( 104 ) Sep 23rd, 2025
Chapter 105: Seaside Secrets ( 105 ) Sep 23rd, 2025
Chapter 106: Wild and Free ( 106 ) Sep 23rd, 2025
Chapter 107: Rush of Desire ( 107 ) Sep 23rd, 2025
Chapter 108: Lost in the Moment ( 108 ) Sep 23rd, 2025
Chapter 109: Hold My Hand ( 109 ) Sep 23rd, 2025
Chapter 110: Home and Heart ( 110 ) Sep 23rd, 2025
Chapter 111: Family Shadows ( 111 ) Sep 23rd, 2025
Chapter 112: A Day Just for Us ( 112 ) Sep 23rd, 2025
Chapter 113: Bonds on the Breeze ( 113 ) Sep 23rd, 2025
Chapter 114: Broken Threads ( 114 ) Sep 23rd, 2025
Chapter 115: Grace in the Storm ( 115 ) Sep 23rd, 2025
Chapter 116: The Peacekeeper ( 116 ) Sep 25th, 2025
Chapter 117: Fading Light, Hidden Feelings ( 117 ) Sep 25th, 2025
Chapter 118: Distance in the Dark ( 118 ) Sep 25th, 2025
Chapter 119: Sunrise and Secrets ( 119 ) Sep 25th, 2025
Chapter 120: Soft Dawn, Strong Love ( 120 ) Sep 25th, 2025
Chapter 121: Silent Witness ( 121 ) Sep 25th, 2025
Chapter 122: Quiet Conflicts ( 122 ) Sep 25th, 2025
Chapter 123: The Wall She Keeps Up ( 123 ) Sep 25th, 2025
Chapter 124: The Last Wall Falling ( 124 ) Sep 25th, 2025
Chapter 125: The Final Fault Line ( 125 ) Sep 25th, 2025
Chapter 126: Leaving Shadows Behind ( 126 ) Sep 25th, 2025
Chapter 127: The Master’s Hidden Hand ( 127 ) Sep 25th, 2025
Chapter 128: Swept Away in Passion ( 128 ) Sep 25th, 2025
Chapter 129: Fury of Pleasure ( 129 ) Sep 25th, 2025
Chapter 130: Perfection in Passion ( 130 ) Sep 25th, 2025
Chapter 131: Between Love and Fear ( 131 ) Sep 25th, 2025
Chapter 132: Love’s Gentle Rhythm ( 132 ) Sep 25th, 2025
Chapter 133: Where Words Fall Short ( 133 ) Sep 25th, 2025
Chapter 134: Silent Vow ( 134 ) Sep 25th, 2025
Chapter 135: Between Business and Heartbeats ( 135 ) Sep 25th, 2025
Chapter 136: Soft Words, Strong Heart ( 136 ) Sep 27th, 2025
Chapter 137: Eyes that Hide the Truth ( 137 ) Sep 27th, 2025
Chapter 138: Masks of Grace ( 138 ) Sep 27th, 2025
Chapter 139: Beyond the Smile ( 139 ) Sep 27th, 2025
Chapter 140: Behind Closed Doors ( 140 ) Sep 27th, 2025
Chapter 141: Bonds of Affection ( 141 ) Sep 27th, 2025
Chapter 142: More Than Words ( 142 ) Sep 27th, 2025
Chapter 143: Hidden Currents ( 143 ) Sep 27th, 2025
Chapter 144: Chains of Silent Guilt ( 144 ) Sep 27th, 2025
Chapter 145: Price of Feeling ( 145 ) Sep 27th, 2025
Chapter 146: Playing the Long Game ( 146 ) Sep 27th, 2025
Chapter 147: Silent Deceptions ( 147 ) Sep 27th, 2025
Chapter 148: Complete Submission ( 148 ) Sep 27th, 2025
Chapter 149: Claimed and Owned ( 149 ) Sep 27th, 2025
Chapter 150: A Dangerous Game ( 150 ) Sep 27th, 2025
Chapter 151: Ambitions in Motion ( 151 ) Sep 27th, 2025
Chapter 152: Power Behind Closed Doors ( 152 ) Sep 27th, 2025
Chapter 153: Family and Influence ( 153 ) Sep 27th, 2025
Chapter 154: Love and Restraint ( 154 ) Sep 27th, 2025
Chapter 155: Breaking Pretenses ( 155 ) Sep 27th, 2025
Chapter 156: Laughter, Love, and Tomorrow ( 156 ) Sep 29th, 2025
Chapter 157: Sweet Night in the Home ( 157 ) Sep 29th, 2025
Chapter 158: Mischief and Memories ( 158 ) Sep 29th, 2025
Chapter 159: A Place to Belong ( 159 ) Sep 29th, 2025
Chapter 161: Gestures and Glances ( 161 ) Sep 29th, 2025
Chapter 162: Pain and Passion ( 162 ) Sep 29th, 2025
Chapter 163: Passion and Restraint ( 163 ) Sep 29th, 2025
Chapter 164: Choosing What Matters ( 164 ) Sep 29th, 2025
Chapter 165: Family and Secrets ( 165 ) Sep 29th, 2025
Chapter 166: Secrets and Lies ( 166 ) Sep 29th, 2025
Chapter 167: Too Precious to Lose ( 167 ) Sep 29th, 2025
Chapter 168: Framed in Love ( 168 ) Sep 29th, 2025
Chapter 169: Surrounded by Love ( 169 ) Sep 29th, 2025
Chapter 170: Silent Support ( 170 ) Sep 29th, 2025
Chapter 171: The Final Night ( 171 ) Sep 29th, 2025
Chapter 172: Final Night Together ( 172 ) Sep 29th, 2025
Chapter 173: Fleeting Bliss ( 173 ) Sep 29th, 2025
Chapter 174: Between Caution and Desire ( 174 ) Sep 29th, 2025
Chapter 175: Secret Moments ( 175 ) Sep 29th, 2025
Chapter 176: Inside Her Secret World ( 176 ) Sep 29th, 2025
Chapter 177: Conflicted Feelings ( 177 ) Oct 1st, 2025
Chapter 178: Silent Ambitions ( 178 ) Oct 1st, 2025
Chapter 179: The Love They Share ( 179 ) Oct 1st, 2025
Chapter 180: A Moment of Happiness ( 180 ) Oct 1st, 2025
Chapter 181: The Secret Deal ( 181 ) Oct 1st, 2025
Chapter 182: The Takahashi Presence ( 182 ) Oct 1st, 2025
Chapter 183: Power in Silence ( 183 ) Oct 1st, 2025
Chapter 184: All Eyes on Her ( 184 ) Oct 1st, 2025
Chapter 185: Center of the Storm ( 185 ) Oct 1st, 2025
Chapter 186: Veiled Intentions ( 186 ) Oct 1st, 2025
Chapter 187: A Fateful Escape ( 187 ) Oct 1st, 2025
Chapter 188: Falling Under the Spell ( 188 ) Oct 1st, 2025
Chapter 189: Drugged and Desperate ( 189 ) Oct 1st, 2025
Chapter 190: In Our Own Space ( 190 ) Oct 1st, 2025
Chapter 191: Her Own Path ( 191 ) Oct 1st, 2025
Chapter 192: Breaking the Chains ( 192 ) Oct 1st, 2025
Chapter 193: Risks and Rewards ( 193 ) Oct 1st, 2025
Chapter 194: Shared Happiness ( 194 ) Oct 1st, 2025
Chapter 195: Holding on to Hope ( 195 ) Oct 1st, 2025
Chapter 196: Bold Move, Calm Rebellion ( 196 ) Oct 1st, 2025
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