Chapter 35: Love and Hate, Does It Matter?

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Chapter 35: Chapter 35: Love and Hate, Does It Matter? In the midst of the cornfields, a gentle breeze caressed the face. But at this moment, Lin Fan seemed to have gone mad, ravaging Zhu Zhixuan beneath him. The repressed longing in his heart erupted completely at this moment, and in his mind were all the memories of the six years they had shared a desk, the two of them with their naive and innocent feelings. Gradually, Zhu Zhixuan also gave up struggling. With tears in her eyes, as she looked up at the nearly crazed Lin Fan, her hands clutched tightly onto Lin Fan’s arms. She let wave after wave of his assault quicken her breath. In this moment, she didn’t know if she was in pain or pleasure, just like the moment yesterday when she had thrown herself at Lin Fan without understanding why she had done so. The sleepless woman was passively enduring Lin Fan’s savage thrusts but the tears in her eyes only multiplied. Seeing her tear-stained face, Lin Fan’s emotions were incredibly complex. She was the object of his budding romantic feelings from his youth and he had once fantasized about her dressed in a bridal gown, marrying him. But she was still the wife of Cai Xuliang, who since childhood found pleasure in humiliating him. Each low growl contained admiration and longing, but also a hint of hatred. Violating the enemy’s wife was undoubtedly the most satisfying form of revenge in the world, and he considered this his retribution against Cai Xuliang. Only after having toppled who knows how many corn stalks, did Lin Fan finally let out a roar, pouring his past longing for love along with his hatred for Cai Xuliang into the deepest reaches of her being. "Huff..." Having let out a long breath, Lin Fan collapsed on top of Zhu Zhixuan, feeling a slight twinge of regret in his weakened state. "Is it enough? Can you let go of me now?" Zhu Zhixuan’s voice was ice-cold, lying there like a lifeless body. "I’m sorry... I was too impulsive!" Lin Fan hurriedly got off her, apologetically looking at Zhu Zhixuan. He clearly had other ways to have her, yet he chose the most reckless one. "You weren’t impulsive. After all, Cai Xuliang has done too many evil things to you. It’s only right that you take revenge on his wife now," Getting up, Zhu Zhixuan wiped the tears from her face, her voice as cold as ever. "No... it’s not like that... It’s just the emotions I’ve suppressed over these years that made me lose my reason," Lin Fan hurriedly explained, but all he received was Zhu Zhixuan’s cold laugh. "I’m no longer that teenager. Do you think such hypocritical words could fool me?" "I’m really not being hypocritical... Don’t you remember the old times?" Lin Fan grasped Zhu Zhixuan’s hand tightly. His recent recollections were of her, head tousled and drowsy, leaning on the desk beside him on some lazy afternoon, her turning smile during a class break, her oblivious concentration when studying seriously, and that occasional sneaky glance at him, quickly turning away when caught. "It’s because I haven’t forgotten that I didn’t scream for help," Zhu Zhixuan stood up and picked up her torn dress to put it back on. "We’re both adults now. I did indeed wrong you in the past, and if I can make it up to you with my body, I can accept that. But what was beneath you just now wasn’t Zhu Zhixuan, it was just the wife of your enemy, so you had no pity." "I... I was just too excited!" Lin Fan, having his inner thoughts exposed, suddenly became like a frostbitten eggplant. He had to admit that the most joyful moment had been about revenge. The image of Cai Xuliang’s flushed face made it impossible for him to control the frenzy in his body. After all, that annoyance had been suppressed in his heart for too long. "Enough, no need to explain. It’s normal for me, as his wife, to bear some consequences for Cai Xuliang’s treatment of you. As long as you feel relieved about it." Zhu Zhixuan’s hand twitched instinctively as she frowned. This near-hour of intense activity had left her legs disobedient, yet she still stubbornly shook off Lin Fan’s hand and said, "Is the revenge over today? Can I leave now? If it’s not enough, feel free to slap me a few times." "Zhixuan, don’t talk like that." "How should I talk, then? Isn’t it a fact that you forced me? Isn’t your desire for revenge also a fact? When have any of you treated me as a person? In your hearts, I am nothing but an object. They used me to exchange for a new house, and you used me to satisfy your desire for revenge. Perhaps this is my fate. I’m tired of struggling. Do whatever you want, who asked me to be so cheap. I should have jumped into the river back then; then I wouldn’t have to experience such humiliation today." Zhu Zhixuan wiped the un-dried tears from her face. The past grievances surged up again, but at this moment, she was out of tears. Heartbreak was greater than any sorrow; she truly couldn’t feel the pain anymore. "I’m sorry, I’m sorry!" Lin Fan, who had done something outrageous, hastily hugged Zhu Zhixuan from behind. He, who normally spoke with poetic flair, suddenly didn’t know what to say. "You have nothing to be sorry for; it is I who am sorry to you. I will not affect your officialdom, nor will I expose you. Rest assured, for years I have been taking long-term birth control pills, so whatever you left inside me won’t take root and grow." Zhu Zhixuan’s words made Lin Fan turn her body around in surprise. "So, the reason you haven’t gotten pregnant all these years is because you were secretly taking pills?" "What else could I do? Allow myself to give birth to a son and daughter for that demon? Dream on. I can’t betray my parents. Despite their flaws, it was they who gave me life and raised me. That’s why I can’t commit suicide; I could only marry this devil. But I have the right to choose not to bear his children, to prevent another little devil from being born." Zhu Zhixuan looked straight into Lin Fan’s eyes and said, "Let me go if you have gotten your revenge." "I... I know I went too far just now. I truly am a scoundrel. But I haven’t forgotten the words I once wrote. Give me a chance to take care of you." Lin Fan held Zhu Zhixuan’s delicate hand. He had already heard her phone conversation, and it was clear her parents disagreed with her request for a divorce. "There’s no need. I’m already married, and I’m not entitled to ask for more. Besides, I’ve come to understand. If they don’t want me to come home, then I won’t go back. I’ll just drag it out with the Old Cai Family until the end, to see who can outlast whom." Zhu Zhixuan took a deep breath and pulled away from Lin Fan’s hand, "If you still have any feelings left, let me go. My mind is in turmoil right now." "Alright, then I’ll look for you another day." Lin Fan knew that the rift between them couldn’t be bridged in a moment. After such an absurd incident, he needed to give her some time to think things over. "No need. If I figure things out, I will seek you out. I hope you won’t disturb my life until then." After straightening her clothes, Zhu Zhixuan limped out of the cornfield. Lin Fan waited a while before walking out himself. Arriving at the riverside, he washed his face. Just then, a stone was thrown into the water, splashing up and instinctively making him turn around. A woman stood not far away, looking at him with a flirtatious smile on her face.

Chapter 35: Love and Hate, Does It Matter?

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